There i was parking my bike outside foodworld... climbed the stairs...took a right and went into a room full of strangers...not knowing how i am going to spend about 8 hours a day,5 days a week, for the next 2 years of my life....who among them would i get close to and hang out with...who would i have a crush on...who would i fight with...who would completely detest me....with all these questions lingering on my mind i stepped into the room for what was my induction ceremony of my double masters degree.
Its been 6 Years since my program director took our first class....there i was in the last bench...sitting next to this guy from a place 540 km south west of chennai (Thanks Wiki)....who had a background in physics and had a mad passion for bikes and cars...a champion at racing...made me wonder what is he doing here??? he had this very unique looking samsung phone with him which had these funky looking backlits...aqua...pink...blue...i had never seen such weired choice of colors....
An then there was this 'jim carrey look-a-like'...who seemed very soft spoken...later i found out he had this abnormal craving for juice,a connoisseur of lil shrubs and grass, this guy can survive on jus a can of tropicana for a whole day...i stood dumbfound looking at this guy guzzle down the liquid as my mind wandered "does he ever eat any proper food??"
then there was this female sitting all alone behind me...seemingly lost in her own thoughts just like me...now my instinct kicks in...i reach into my pocket n grab a pack of spearmint...an ask her if she is interested....no...that was her first and only word...
A quick glance around the room....one corner i see a big guy...seeming completely disinterested in the class scribbling something in his notepad....another guy a ring in one ear,chewing a gum, was seriously trying to pay attention to what the prof was sayin....there was this other guy seemed all too interested in what the girls sitting behind him were giggling about...then there was this other female who was the epitome of attention trying to take notes....an then this other guy who just seemed so out of it that he was probably daydreaming by now....
time just flies when your are having fun...before i realized it was lunch break.....we all kinda sat together....trying to share what we had and for a while it seemed as though it was going to be all ok....suddenly it din't seem all that strange....the strangers about whom i was so skeptical suddenly seemed friend material...may be this was going to work out after all....
Days passed....fun was in the air...we were having a ball....our so called gang was nice and big....people sharing things with each other talking,laughing,hanging out....basically having a good time....all seemed too good to be true...
then as quickly as things got good it all changed one fine day...suddenly people seemed to ignore me...lunch table became a place where i had to see peoples back...like as though i no longer existed for them....the thing that was irksome was that no one was telling what the issue was...being the way i was i just chugged along my merry way not letting things change who i was...
as the semester came to an end....so did my ignorance....nothing would have prepared me for what i was about to hear...the issue was of much bigger proportions than i had imagined....started with a basic misunderstanding....someone telling things which i never uttered...another guy saying i did something which had never ever even occurred to me even in my wildest dreams...an then this other guy went about digging my grave right under me....i was shocked to hear... only one question lingered on my mind...and it probably does even today....all this had a simple solution a question face to face would have solved it all...but thats life....sometimes things which seem obvious just doesn't happen....
Life indeed was not the same...and would probably never be the same...As they say all that happens happens for the good....what came out of all that misunderstanding was that i realised what true friendship was....i realised it doesn't matter how many are with you when you are having fun...all that matters is how many are there for you...it got me closer to people who i am close even today...yea...its been 4 years now after we got out of the place....am still in close contacts with those two guys...am thankful to god that whatever happened actually happened...because if not for those things i probably would not have got two dear friends who mean nothing short of the world to me...guys who i miss everyday....guys who i know are missing me too...
looking back today sitting in a place full of strangers...again wondering who among these would i hang out with....who among them would get a crush on...who among these guys would detest me....seems all so familiar....the only difference is....now am prepared....am ready to face anything....am sure whatever happens is not make a difference to me...if not anything else it is only gonna make me stronger...if things are gonna be like what have been happening for the past one year...i just cant wait to go back.....an i would have no issues of missing people all together....
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i know wat u have went thro was a bitter experience and as u have understood something in life we cant predict path and you have to go by it's merit... u r a true person in front god that i kno very well and god knows wat is best for his children and will deliver it on time...u will be the happilest person at that time...ppl who have missed u will feel bad that time..
i never did worry back then an neither do i feel a tid bit bad now da...u no me right...as i said whatever happens happens for the good...there is always a good that comes out of everything....whats doesn't kill you makes you stronger this is something that i believe very strongly...i know am really really strong primarily cuz of the things i have crossed all these years....
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